alone time......

i can't feel guilty about my desires to have some alone time!!! do you ever have that? i certainly do. i know i need it, but i am often plagued with guilt about it. i feel so selfish. i am a bit of an introvert.....older i get the worse it gets! i find myself in the the depths of despair, while trying not to be a beast! often when i get to this point, it just makes my love for my family that much louder. i know that sounds crazy, but it's true. i often stop myself and think, how is it that you beings don't understand that i need, NEED to be left alone?? while at the same time, i'm feeling sad i feel that way and embracing the fact that i need their presence. it's tough being a wife and working mother.....the balance you seek is also your demon b/c it is never a balance....it's a localized war inside your own mind, body, heart and soul. i am a true believer in a being refreshed by some alone time.....i truly am....it's such a hurdle for me tho. i suppose i am not alone.